about iael
a bit more about the energy practitioner
i have been working in energy work for 14 years.
that’s 2 full saturn cycles, if you follow that sort of thing.
but that’s probably not a surprise given how long i’ve been involved in spiritual study.
I had a strong connection with God and with angels, even as a young child, and remember sitting up in prayer until the sunrise even at 6 years old.
at 9 i was interested in reading about daoism and studied meditation and self hypnosis. i was deeply unhappy, and i would later come to understand what i had experienced as abuse, but i knew that what i was experiencing was not normal and had to be hidden from the adults around me.
in preparation of my Bat Mitzvah, at 12, even though I was never accepted fully in my temple, there were some serious discussions about me pursing a life as a rabbi, something i thankfully decided against when I learned about the Talmud.
i was learning about astral travel and tarot by this point, and had taken up serious interest in astrology and numerology. but my home life was miserable.
some close family friends fled the senior levels of the Church of Scientology and brought their materials with them. I started using Dianetics as a therapeutic tool to clear some things for myself and friends of mine.
i had a pretty well rounded education in many new age and occult disciplines by this point, but it did me very little in terms of helping me deal with the misery i was experiencing.
I was still under the illusion of reincarnation at this time, and decided to attempt suicide at 14. Thankfully, it didn’t work, but while I was splayed out on the floor unable to move, I had an encounter with an angel that seemed to show me that a direct connection with God wasn’t only possible, it was our birthright. Surviving that near death experience gave me a completely new perspective, released a large amount of suffering that I had been carrying, and gave me the inner knowing that, despite everything, God was with me.
I focused on creative disciplines, self publishing poetry, stories, and painting. i studied ballet seriously, until and injury and pressure to lose weight pushed me out of the program.
By 16 I was studying yoga in the interest of healing, and had trained as a yoga instructor by 19. I began teaching and working with athletes and seniors, both of whom needed modifications and extra support to learn and use yoga. I also had begun reading vedic scripture and diving deeply into the belief systems beneath the yoga I had been teaching.
In 2006-2008, as I began to read more about the deep state, MK ultra and child trafficking, I began to experience suspicious ‘attacks’. Flash migraines, flooding to my apartment, and being tracked/followed by a few individuals, one of whom was attempting to recruit me into freemasonry. I was using deep meditation to ‘clear’ things, but I was also experiencing unexplained energetic attacks that I did not have language for, having been taught by the yogic disciplines that it’s ‘all within me’. I didn’t even believe in evil or the demonic realms, so I didn’t even have language for what was going on. I was really still under the illusion of karma and had very little sovereignty in my life, still doing what i was programmed to do, and not giving it very much thought besides obsessively reading tarot about it.
The best thing I could do that that point was to stop my spiritual practice completely. I put away the tarot cards, and focused on building a normal (ish) life, moving to England and starting a new relationship in 2008. I was happy and grateful to have a normal job and a stable life at that point, and focused mainly on survival and building a life in England.
early signs that i always had a “now” relationship with time, 1994
i used to walk around the playground and talk in light language, at least until i realised that this behaviour was frowned upon.
just before leaving the US in 2008. I had briefly been in hospital with unexplained symptoms.
until time itself collapsed in 2011
suddenly, while in a particularly boring work meeting, the fabric of reality began to unravel.
i was seeing behind the dimensions of time and space itself. molecules that comprised physical reality melted into a hot lava flame, and a layer of density seemed to completely collapse in the world around me. this was one of the loudest visual experiences I had ever been through, and it was happening unplanned and unprompted. I was being shown energetic frameworks behind all living things. I could see across timelines and was aware of myself living across multiple spans of time simultaneously.
honestly, it was kind of alarming. for a moment, i thought i was losing my mind. i didn’t tell anyone, and it took me several months to understand what was happening. i had been taught that kundalini awakenings before mid life were dangerous, but i was pretty sure that i was having one. i was now able to command back my soul energy from past experiences and my ability to directly witness and clear energy was at this point fully online.
I began cautiously experimenting with this, clearing my own energy and the fields of close trusted friends. I slowly gained confidence with this gift. I could see, reliably, that what i was seeing was real and not some trick of the mind, and how clearing stuck energy from the field could rapidly shift physical reality.
naturally i kept this all a secret, got married (to a hardcore athiest), and continued my office job like nothing had happened. but everything had fundamentally changed.
immediately after the kundalini awakening, summer 2011
i was a Teacher
corporate trainer mode, 2016
i had been working in teaching, both as a yoga teacher, and in management coaching for my entire adult career, intensifying in 2012 with full time work in mentoring and coaching in the management disciplines I had become expert in.
my work was characterised by constant travel and coaching people from different backgrounds, in person and online. i often found myself operating as counselor and transmuting energy in these spaces just as much as i was working my official job.
during this period I certified in teaching kundalini yoga, and briefly worked again teaching yoga alongside my full time career. But i knew this was not sustainable for me, and that I would not want to be spending the rest of my life in management.
even though i was comfortable clearing energy by this point, for individuals or groups, it still felt like something secret or shameful, that i daren’t try to explain to anyone else.
i was still having visions and clearing energy wherever i went.
the grief portal and transformation
the loss of my father and the breakdown of my marriage in 2020 was the turning point. i had found myself completely paralysed with grief, and at the same time aware of how intensely deception and the demonic was present in my life and relationships, and how the seeds of that were planted in early childhood sexual abuse. I finally began to understand the nature of evil and how it operates, but it broke me. my mind couldn’t, or wouldn’t, accept it.
As the world came to a halt in 2020, I was continuing to work, freelancing management training to essential businesses, still teaching meditation online, but finding myself completely torn apart and having to manage all of my usual responsibilities, as well as plan a funeral.
I had cracked open by grief, but instead of being able to safely move through it, the amount of hostility, deception and demonic attacks I was experiencing in my personal life were complicating my capacity to heal. i couldn’t leave my spouse in that state, and the demonic was operating through him, taking my inaction as consent and punishing me for staying in place.
I was performing exorcisms and casting out demons, and facing long held energetic attachments in my own field, and my own clearing practice deepened as I was able to access and reintegrate deeper and deeper layers of my own field. but the gates of hell had already been set open by infidelity and emotional abuse in my marriage.
I began to understand the energetic causes of the repeated issues I was experiencing in my life, and make the slow climb of liberating myself. Through trial and error, and continued energy work, and many mistakes I slowly made progress.
The biggest setback i experienced was in 2021. due to immense pressure at home, and against my better judgement, i allowed myself to be vaccinated. I then spent over a year in desperate prayer and research, eventually clearing it fully from my body and learning how to help others do the same.
I began sharing more about my practice with others, and cut ties with Kundalini yoga, having discovered a number of energetic siphons in my own field as a result of my involvement with that discipline.
In 2022 I finally had the information I needed to free myself, and took the risk to leave my then husband with only 3 suitcases and a few art prints. So much energy was liberated in this process that it catapulted me into a completely new phase.
kundalini yoga teaching promotional photo, 2018
land work and shamanism
in 2022 I started working with singing and rattle, something i still use in my personal practice to clear dense, stuck energy
after for most of 2022 I was travelling constantly, for work and to house sit for others as I had no stable place to live. The benefit of this was that I was being given an opportunity to do land energy clearing in various places throughout the UK and the middle east.
in Sep 2022 I experienced working with psilocybin for the first time, which permanently unlocked a new level of visioning capability. I could see and directly access the energy work and land work in a completely new way. This assisted me as I finished the leyline clearing and repairs in Israel, UAE and Oman in 2022-23.
I had an interest in studying and learning from shamanic traditions during this period, but I was already aware that this was not the path for me. My practice was simpler, clearer, and didn’t carry many of the ceremonial attachments or ancestral distortions that I was witnessing. I began working with people who had experienced demonic attachments or soul injury during medicine ceremonies, assisting with soul reclamation and reversal of demonic portals and contracts.
my initiation in Christ
this illustration of the compassionate blue Christ by Hildegarde von Bingen is extremely close to what I witnessed in 2023.
Christ visited me during a psilocybin journey in 2023, and the beginning of my walk with Christ did two things.
(1) revealed an entirely new level of discernment to me that I did not have before, especially in regards to the false light present in the new age and religious communities
(2) it URGED me to stop giving intuitive guidance and coaching and move into exclusively working with energy clearing.
I had been channeling guidance for clients until that point, recognising already that it was distorted but doing what the client asked and clearing myself afterward. But with the support and conviction I had gained through Christ, I closed this practice and began to focus exclusively on clearing/deliverance work.
A major part of this for me was in the removal of myself from the kaballah energetic blockchain, which had been dominating and limiting my life experience since my Bat Mitzvah as a child (and my have caused my attempted suicide). Being plugged into this sacrificial network was still causing me problems, and freeing myself from it as a major turning point that allowed me to turn my back on Judaism and fully witness the distortions that were operating in many abrahamic religions, including the Yahweh and El distortions. I began more serious study into biblibcal texts - this time from the perspective of someone who understood the distortions present.
In my walk with Christ, I continued in the deepening of my discernment, and in learning from deliverance ministry, my continued experience in energy work, and mentorship in Christ.
my practice today
these are my favourite offerings at the moment, that I am excited to share with you.