about your energy practitioner, iael
a little more about me and how i came to do the work that i do
*tw: sexual abuse, suicide, infidelity, government mind control
i have been practicing in energy work for 14 years
that’s 2 full saturn cycles, if you follow that sort of thing.
but that’s probably not a surprise given how long i’ve been involved in spiritual study.
sure, I had other careers ongoing as a spokesperson, or a security guard, or in retail or finance, or in management. but the constant thing in my life was spiritual practice and enquiry.
I have memories of being a small child, perhaps 3 or 4, enduring attacks by demons in my sleep. I started staying up all night praying and talking to God, feeling myself held by angels as I cried. I understood that God was with me even if life felt pointless or painful.
i studied meditation, breath, and self hypnosis from the age of 9, teaching myself to control my breath and guide myself to sleep, finally ending my 6 year bout of insomnia.
i was raised in the Sephardic Jewish tradition, and took my spiritual study seriously enough to consider becoming a rabbi when the option was offered to me at the age of 12, but of course, that was never going to happen. the community did not accept me because my mother was a convert, and I was horrified by the Talmud. I ended up introducing the student rabbi to Daoism instead and, after my Bat Mitzvah, renounced Judaism completely.
at 13 I was initiated in tarot by my mother, and began studying numerology and astrology and learning about astral travel (something i had already been doing without intending to). I started having experiences I couldn’t explain - other star systems and other realms that I would feel parts of myself inhabiting, in a way that it felt like i was forcefully being pulled there. I used the internet to research different and fringe belief systems, anything I could get my hands on, trying to understand what makes people believe what they believe, and what they might be perceiving that others can’t.
The school system made several attempts to medicate or program me, but gratefully my mother was not interested. I had early tested into the “gifted” program in kindergarten and was regularly being pulled out of class for lessons, and I have many memories of being questioned intently by school psychologists - about my motives, about why and how i am different, and so on. i don’t blame them. it was probably alarming dealing with a tween that talked in light language and drew intricate diagrams of other realms and dimensional crossing underwater tunnel systems. I also experienced sexual abuse and harassment at school, from teachers and fellow students, something that was not reprimanded, but encouraged. later i would understand that this was part of the MK Ultra systems of behavioural programming that are used against young women in the US school system.
I was a dancer and had studied ballet and theatrical music and dance in a somewhat well known dance school, but i had experienced injury and pressure to stop eating and become even thinner, because i was developing and growing too tall for the 13 year old male dancers to lift me. it became more obvious that learning to dance felt like being programmed, and i felt like i was being controlled and sexualised. i quit dance at 14, content that i was making the right decision. i was weary of dealing with the seemingly neverending abuse and hostility i was encountering from adults, from home and at school.
in the consciousness i had at the time, i believed in reincarnation in a linear sense, and that my life was hopeless. i couldn’t see how i was going to be allowed to create, or to help people - the only two things that mattered to me. I could see no way to move forward other than to die and be born again.
so at 14, while i was alone in the house, I overdosed on tylenol (paracetemol) hoping to make a quick exit from this realm and be born again in a new life. And I was, but not in the way I expected. I had a near death experience and woke up paralysed on my bedroom floor.
from that position, unable to move and physically paralysed from the overdose, I had direct encounter with God. years of suffering was spontaneously released from my body, tears streaming down my face. i felt an immediate “reboot” of my energy. i was reborn, i just didn’t have to leave the body.
this was the first time i experienced what it was like to have a spontaneous release of stuck energy from the energy field. I had no idea i would go on to help others experience this.
how a child sees things (iael circa age 6)
i used to walk around the playground and sing in tongues, at least until i realised that this behaviour was frowned upon.
i convicted myself to spiritual study and stopped taking life so seriously
i dedicated myself to study, and to creating. i wrote constantly - poems, short stories. i painted. i let my grades suffer for awhile as i realised that it was a gift from God to be alive and i better dedicate myself to my life’s purpose.
around this time, some close family friends had escaped the senior levels of Scientology and came to live with us. I learned much from them about how the mind works and how high control occult systems operate. we would drink black coffee and talk for hours about the nature of consciousness, reality agreements, and time.
at 14, i was counselling some friends in their struggle to wean themselves off recreational drugs and psychiatric drugs they were prescribed by the school system. i saw up close the horrors of an institutional system that would dose a ten year old friend with lithium because they were experiencing abuse at home, and the damage it did to the body over time. by the age of 15 I had begun studying from Dianetics (an early scientology text that shares similar approaches to modern re-exposure practices such as EMDR) and using it to assist friends who had experienced childhood sexual abuse in clearing their trauma. I was able to help one friend get his Bipolar diagnosis reversed and confront his family about the abuse he experienced.
because this realm is what it is, i was also being groomed by a well known music producer at this time who was also trying to work with me. that only lasted a few months, but he stalked me for some time after that, even contacting people i knew asking them if they had photos of me when i was younger. it took me many years to understand that he was a pedophile, and that he had used hypnotic suggestions to control me.
it was in this period that i discovered yoga and began practicing it regularly, obtaining my first yoga teaching qualification at 19 and then a second teaching qualification in kundalini yoga ten years later. i was moving large amounts of energy out of my body.
but regardless of my lifelong interest in healing practices and religious study, i continued doing what everyone expected me to while continuing this work on the side. i graduated high school a year early and went to university. i made a semi-serious second attempt at working in the arts, studying creative writing before settling on an art history programme, and attending many dance auditions (and never securing a part). i was writing music and still looking for music producers to work with, but it never worked out. I continued my tarot and astrology study, becoming very adept at astrology readings, but never thought about doing it for work.
the truth is, I never committed to any of these things, because I was never a good fit for any of them. I refused to submit to any authority other than God.
when the world sees a spiritual seeker, they will tell her she is an artist, a witch, or both. circa 2000.
Oct 2000. obviously i still had a lot to clear.
there was an aspect of my experience I had yet to fully understand. there was a reason my intuition kept guiding me away from music, the performing arts, and that these environments felt unsafe to me. even though i had been programmed with a desire to perform, the demonic control systems operating in the arts would have swallowed me whole. in truth, the abuse i experienced at the hands of the systems that manage what sound and frequency is received by the masses was not unique - it was by design.
I had been dabbling in modelling and acting to pay the bills while i was in university, but the environments didn’t feel good and I often felt exploited or uncomfortable about what was i was doing. A guy i was seeing started introducing me to occult information about freemasonry and mind control, but it became clearer to me that he was interested to join them, not to expose them. After I left him, many strange events started occurring - attempted break ins, flooding and damage to my flat, and things of mine getting stolen. the local police refused to respond to my break ins, and had beaten my neighbour so badly they had to be taken to the hospital, so i was aware that i would not get help from them. I started getting followed around by a man trying actively to recruit me into freemasonry or it’s affiliated organisation, the eastern star. this only made me more interested to understand what was actually happening.
gradually, i began to ‘wake up’ to what the authorities were actually doing, a process that began on 9/11 when i watched them edit news footage in real time and lie about events my friends had witnessed, and culminated with what i watched the authorities do after Hurricane Katrina in 2005. I started reading David Icke books and educating myself about the parasitic classes and blood sacrifice rituals. I learned about HAARP and weather modification technologies that were being rapidly developed. I read about MK ultra and the testimony of Cathy O’Brien. Even though i had still not connected all the dots, something in her testimony resonated deeply with me and shook me in my core. It was only by the grace of God that I did not end up trafficked like this.
I declared to myself and to God that I was going to change this. I energetically severed myself from my environment and quit modelling and going to auditions. The economy was collapsing, my university went bankrupt and had closed my programme with one year remaining for my degree. it felt like I was being pushed out of the United States. On the basis of a vision of a scene in a park, a new relationship, (and a second passport), I left for England in 2009 to live as uneventful a life as possible.
… but life continued being serious anyway
2008 Nevada - i had just given up on the entertainment industry after ending up in the hospital and was ready to leave the united states and my targeting behind. This pie was delicious by the way, and can be found on a roadside diner in Camino, CA.
until time itself collapsed in 2011…
suddenly, while in a particularly boring work meeting, the fabric of reality began to unravel.
on a random Tuesday morning, while at work in my job as a data analyst, i began seeing behind the dimensions of time and space itself. i had run away from my awakening, but it snapped back at me so hard that physical reality itself had collapsed around me.
molecules that comprised matter melted into a hot lava flame, and a layer of density seemed to completely collapse in the world around me. this was one of the loudest visual experiences I had ever been through, and it was happening unplanned and unprompted. I was being shown energetic frameworks behind all living things. I could see across timelines and was aware of myself living across multiple spans of time simultaneously.
honestly, it was kind of alarming. for a while, i thought i was losing my mind. i didn’t dare tell anyone, and it took me several months to understand what was happening.
i had been taught in my yoga studies that kundalini awakenings before mid-life were dangerous, and i was pretty sure that i was having one at 26.
many years prior, i had toyed with moving energy through my hands, but this was something completely different. i could now witness and gently directly move or clear energy, as if i was conducting an orchestra, only using my mind.
I began cautiously experimenting with this, clearing my own energy and the fields of close trusted friends. I slowly gained confidence with this gift. I could see, reliably, that what i was seeing was real and not some trick of the mind, and how clearing stuck energy from the field could rapidly shift physical reality.
i spent the rest of 2011 and 2012 clearing my own energy field of dark programs, leaks, distortions, tears, and cords. i had so much damage and infiltration because of how i had been treated in childhood and in my teenage years that it would still take me over a decade to fully understand, but i knew that i could start clearing, and so i did.
i removed cords from people i had never met who had only watched my online content as a teenager. i removed cords from coworkers and colleagues, friends and old lovers, and anyone who was still operating in a place of energy harvesting and projection in my field. i experimented with energy work on others and was really surprised to see that it was able to help them rapidly clear the emotional sources of their physical illness.
naturally, i kept this all a secret from everyone i knew, got married, and continued my life like nothing had happened. but, everything had fundamentally changed.
i would eventually learn, through many mistakes (including the marriage), how the demonic operates through contracts and consent.
this is what a compressed consciousness looks like, in case you are wondering. Paris, Jan 2011
immediately after my kundalini awakening, June or July 2011
i was a teacher.
Dec 2016. teacher mode. see if you can spot the grey walk-in that I was using to survive it all (i cleared it in 2018)
first, i taught yoga. breathwork, meditation. then, in my corporate career, i became an expert in a process re-engineering and management methodology that sought to understand and improve systems. i was leading classrooms in multinational organisations and travelling to far flung locations to teach people what i knew. i transitioned my corporate management training career into a freelance service in 2016, which opened up opportunities to travel independently. every place i would go, i would connect with and sense energies in the land. i would focus intently and shift things, but i was still not fully aware of the extent what i was doing. my conscious was also extremely limited by energetic attacks and infiltration i picked up from working in corporate environments.
i re-trained in a second discipline of yoga - kundalini yoga - in 2017, and resumed teaching yoga while continuing my corporate career. by this point, i was teaching 24-7 in different contexts and locations, to people all over the world, online and offline. I was also serving as a carer for my elderly father and trying to manage a difficult home life. The only thing that allowed me to continue to function was a rigorous yoga practice to rebuild my energy and keep my nervous system engaged. I focused on honing my dual crafts, as a teacher and as an energy worker.
i began to see the connection between my chosen careers. in both cases, i was working with clarifying and mastering energetic systems, and teaching others to do the same.
it wasn’t until my world collapsed that the illusory structures i had built around this teaching career (and my personal life) started to completely crumble.
demons are real and nothing was what i thought it was
Kundalini yoga teacher training promo still, 2018
Devil’s bit, the plant that taught me about exorcism
in 2019 i learned that evil was real. if that sounds late, it’s because it really was.
you see, growing up in the yogic and new age traditions, you get told everything is all you. the abusive behaviour of your spouse or parent? it’s a reflection of you. the left hand path? it’s just service to self which is another way to learn. it was jarring to come face to face with actual evidence that this worldview was completely, utterly, false.
an upstairs neighbour, an older woman, began a campaign of harassment. she filed numerous noise complaints and started making obscene gestures at our doorbell camera in a way that felt unsettling and strange. it was only until i sat across from her during a council arranged mediation session, that i understood that i was looking at a demon staring back at me through her eyes.
i thought about the storyline from the old television series Twin Peaks, where Laura Palmer’s father was possessed by a demon when he abused her. could demonic possession actually be real?
it kicked off a phase of grief where i began to understand that nothing in my life was as i thought it was. my relationship with my father, and my then husband were marked by demonic infiltration and energetic siphoning. what i had been raised with, and the systems in which i had been educated could not explain what i was witnessing.
on a whim in the summer of 2019, i drove by myself to the Pendle region of Lancashire, most famous for its witch trials. i was initially thinking i would write a book on witchcraft, but what brought me there was something else. quietly, by the side of the road, i found a small patch of a spiky purple plant that looked familiar. I didn’t know the name, and i had no way of looking it up, but i foraged some to take home. later on i would learn it’s name - devil’s bit - a plant traditionally used by witches to ward off demonic spirits. The idea that I could have some power over clearing the demonic was new to me, and I set up a small space to burn the herbs as I meditated in my room. within a few minutes, my possessed upstairs neighbour began screaming and slamming the floor from above. I carefully extracted the demon from her and cast it away. She never bothered us again, and I began taking exorcism more seriously.
by this point i understood that my then husband had many, many demonic attachments and portals open in his field. I kept clearing them, but they kept returning. It became clear that he was attracting them through ancestral binds, as well as mindset and life choices. later i would learn to clear this type of infiltration pattern, for others who were more ready for change.
the profound portal of grief
I had been working full time, teaching yoga, offering tarot counselling, and maintaining a business and caring for my aged father from 2016 until he passed in 2020. we had a difficult, unhealthy and painful relationship, and it was something i endured out of responsibility and care rather than enjoyed. it was all completely unsustainable and i was working myself to death with inadequate support, so it was a needed collapse. but it left me in a barely functional place and very open to energetic attack.
i knew that my relationship with my father was deeply troubled, and emotionally incestuous, and that something was fundamentally wrong with my father, but it wasn’t until he had passed that my mind began offering up deeply buried memories of inappropriate sexual touch (and later, explicit sexual abuse). I began to understand that my life had been characterised by allowing myself to be constantly siphoned in the name of duty or obligation. my father had used threats of suicide and depression to get attention from me, and my then husband had done the same. all of those years of service were at the expense of my own sovereignty and my purpose on earth, and this had cased me immense harm. I was also starting to understand that i was experiencing emotional abuse and infidelity in my relationship. I was in the process of coming unglued as I began to see the extent of the energetic siphoning and mistreatment I was experiencing, but I was not strong enough yet to free myself.
i still had so much to unravel, but i was looking for help in the wrong places and still operating from so much low self confidence and unworthiness.
i sought out help from yoga practices and energy healers who all got me into a worse condition, siphoning my energy to various false light systems, something i would have to undo later on. I started working with BQH, a hypnosis practice, which also opened some malevolent doors in my energy field that would have to later be undone. in 2020 I also had to unplug myself from the kundalini yoga practice and the energy harvesting systems behind it, something that put me at odds with my friends still in the practice and isolated me further.
i felt completely trapped by my circumstances, was starting to succumb to depression, and did not understand how i was going to free myself. but in the process of surrender, something started to shift as i felt my capacity building. i was not ok, but i started to experience a profound acceptance and heart centered peace in the not - ok. through prayer, i felt renewed connection with God and conviction that this could be overcome.
I also struggled with energetic attacks and false light plaguing me at this time. i had not fully understood yet how to protect my energy in that vulnerable state, and i was surrounded by new age material telling me my pulsing headaches, buzzing sensations, and feelings of things being installed were all ‘ascension symptoms’. I began to normalise the strange sensations i was feeling in my energy field that seemed to be aggressively intervening with my progress.
i began to invest many many hours a day in clearing myself around this time, without trying to explain, justify, or prove what seemed to be coming out of me. i integrated and cleared so much of my own energy from across space and time that it gradually helped me be more present and able to deal with my life. I prepared pine needle tinctures to clear my own graphene and hydrogel, and used juice cleanses to rebuild my gut health.
dedicating so much of my energy, time, and money to my own healing attracted more hostility from my then husband, who was still trapped in cycles of disassociation and addiction, and angry that i was not earning as much as i once was to support the lifestyle he wanted. i finally left him in 2022 after receiving concrete evidence of his infidelity and contenting myself that my obligations to him were finished. by this point i had peeled back many of the layers of illusion and false light that were operating in my personal life and my spiritual practice, and catapulted myself towards the future, with no idea what would happen next, but with an ungrounding and dysregulated amount of enthusiasm. several forces tried to hijack my energy during this process. divorce was the easy part, but stably navigating the new reality and who i was becoming would prove much more challenging.
most of my days were spent like this, in prayer and floods of tears.
coming out the other side of depression and grief in 2021, i bravely continued sharing what i had learned with others online, much to the embarrassment of the losers i was hanging around with at the time.
liberating myself, launching into land work and shamanic studies
sometimes land work looks like this. other times it looks like i’m doing nothing at all.
living in Devon and travelling through England and Wales gave me ample opportunity to work with clearing ancient sites and consecrating them to God. This site in the Dartmoor was one of many where Nephilim were once present, and I did good work sending them back to God and clearing the land of the energy of ancient blood sacrifices.
my newfound freedom completely accelerated my land work by catapulting me into a period of constant travel (and homelessness) from 2022-2023 that sent me all over england wales and scotland, to the middle east, and to various parts of europe. i was working as a teacher, pet sitting, and staying with friends while waiting for my ex to finally sign the agreement, and doing my best to maintain payments on the joint debt that was in my name.
this brought land work back to the forefront again, starting with a series of transformative leyline repairs and clearings that i performed on the leylines in Israel Jul 2022 - Mar 2023 and in Dubai and Oman later in 2023. I also did a long tour of France, Spain and Portugal, sensing and clearing leylines there at several neolithic sites and prominent ley nodes.
I could see what i had been doing for years with new clarity. my rapid shift in consciousness, initially sparked by the separation and strengthened by my first use of psilocybin, was showing me ways that i had always been doing land work without even knowing it. i was also identifying places where soul energy from my lineage had been trapped and liberating it, furthering my own integration.
during this period i experienced many painful relational lessons and underwent a lot of change as i understood my own patterns and freed myself from several people that had been feeding off my energy. many people in my life did NOT like this new version of me that prioritised joy, refused to apologise for my choices, that was comfortable saying NO and setting healthier boundaries. this created a lot of instability in my relationships, with friends and family members making dramatic and painful exits at various intervals. it was extremely isolating at times, but it was also quiet. I deepened my connection with the land and with God with heavy doses of solitude.
at this time, i took an interest in learning about shamanic traditions. I was doing energy work in festival settings, and would visit other practitioners’ ceremonial spaces, but i was concerned at some of the practices I was seeing. there was a lot of distortion and energy harvesting i could see operating in shamanic and plant medicine communities, and i quickly began working with clearing and teaching discernment to people who were leaving medicine circles with energetic attachments and nowhere else to turn.
my initiation in Christ
this illustration of the compassionate blue Christ by Hildegarde von Bingen is extremely close to what I witnessed in 2023.
Christ visited me during a psilocybin journey in September 2023
i wasn’t alarmed, because the mind on psilocybin is prepared for almost anything. and because the space holder had given me about 10x the amount of psilocybin i should have been given.
he appeared at the very moment i began to move into the space of interconnectedness with all things, in a calm and protective way. i was surprised, firstly because i didn’t expect to see Christ chilling in the centre of all things, and also because i had assumed that my path had nothing to do with Christ. Even though in the past i had happily read and studied Christian mystics like Juliana of Norwich and Hildegarde von Bingen, my background was so far removed from Christianity. the idea of a personal connection with Christ was totally foreign, and i honestly wasn’t looking for it, having tangled with my share of false light entities over the course of my life.
i witnessed the love of Christ, and understood quickly that he was there primarily to help with my discernment, and to get me on the path of applying my energy clearing and visioning gifts into something that could help more people. I hadn’t considered making my clearing widely available to the public, or even disclosing that i could do this to a lot of people. but Christ had some wisdom and lessons for me. he pushed me to put myself forward and share about what i was doing, and even learn some new skills to be able to do so. i was shown even then that i would be teaching others how to do this work.
I had been maintaining a practice of tarot and channeling guidance from their guides for clients until that point, recognising by then that it was distorted but still doing what the client asked and clearing myself of the distortion afterward. But with the support and conviction I had gained through Christ, I closed this practice and began to focus exclusively on clearing/deliverance work.
I would need to step forward and live more honestly in this new discernment. I couldn’t pander any longer to the distortions in my spiritual counselling clients and friends when they asked me to channel whatever false light entity they were interested in or talked gushingly about some galactic group that came to “help” them. i needed to hold the sword of truth, keep my energy clear, and reflect that truth honestly to others.
I researched deliverance practices and felt that there was so much similarity between what i was doing and what they were doing, even if we used different terms. i used this new level of discernment in Christ to dig even deeper into my own field as I took my clients along with me. i started peeling back the layers of false light present in my field - from ancestral contracts, spiritual practices, and anything else that had gotten in the way of my connection with God.
A major part of this for me was in the removal of myself from the kaballah energetic blockchain that i had been initiated to through Judaism, which had been dominating and limiting my life experience (and my have caused my attempted suicide). Being plugged into this sacrificial network was still causing me problems, and freeing myself from it as a major turning point that allowed me to fully witness the distortions that were operating in many abrahamic religions, including the Yahweh and El distortions. I began more serious study into biblical texts - this time from the perspective of someone who had broken contracts with Yahweh and was able to protect herself from the distortions.
I continue to walk with Christ, sharpening my discernment and refining my awareness as I deepen my connection with fathermother God, while steering clear of the traps of religion and occultism as I always have.
i now support energy practitioners who are walking the path that i once walked, out of illusion and darkness, and into the light of clarity, discernment, and direct connection with God.
finally, everything comes full circle, and i get to teach again, but from the position of lived experience, to a community that is ready to graduate out of delusion, distortion, and darkness.
my favourite ways to support you right now
the free revocation prayer
one simple prayer that knocks false light out of the energy field. i really wish i had this in 2019. it would have saved me so much time.
CLEARING NANO
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what my clients have said…
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— Anon Client from 2023-24
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